This is my view every morning at work. I love my job.None of these are edited or have filters. All are maybe from 3 days.
While my life slowly falls apart in the Internet world and together in real life; here is a picture of my best friend and I.
My computer died sort of. The screens black anyways. That kinda means that I’m not gonna be totally active because I’m lazy and I don’t like building a queue on the app.
So that’s that. If one of you wants to come over and fix it or bring me a new laptop I will not stop you…. So that invitation is totally open.
Could be the second time now that the guy I’m seeing moves to a border town and leaves me behind. We’ll see. This time I was invited, but this time I’m not willing to go somewhere I don’t want to be for a boy.
I don’t think my mom is aware of the fact that she’s not nice to me anymore and insults me whenever she can. I felt fine about myself and then she said I’ve gotten fat and now I don’t feel very good about myself. And I’m nit picking every inch of myself and feel terrible.
I fixed my eating disorder, quit hurting myself, quit abusing drugs, stabilized my bipolar without big pharma, put myself through school, change my entire outlook on myself, and yet my mom calling me fat destroys more progress than it should.
Rock climbing tomorrow :)
And my friend is gonna download her Brazilian butt lift videos onto my computer. Then if my other friend’s friend opens a dance studio then I’m taking beginner lessons for dance.
And I’m gonna try and get myself back into yoga.
Gotta stay physical in this party free lifestyle I’ve fallen into.p
Sometimes I want to go back in time and visit my 14 year old self and affirm that being a lesbian would be a marvelous choice and you should make it instead of question it.
Because currently all boys want is for you to clean up after them and make babies and fuck doing both of those things.
My boyfriend and his friends are in the backyard and I have this really intense feeling to lock the door, set the alarm and leave.
My needy, lazy bastard dogs. All of which have climbed and then fallen asleep on me at least once today. The little one is more like 5 times.
Having one of those I wanna delete my blog and start a new one because people I know are on here and it’s weird…
I’ll just submit shit places anonomously.
I move next week. I miss my boyfriend. I’m so goddamn tired, had to deal with two asshole parents today and a daycare filled with asshole children while we were short staffed. Wanted a drink with my friend but she’s not answering. I really wanna have that lovely back rub your significant other sometimes does right and then be the little spoon.
Do I look as sad/overwhelmed/exhausted as I think I do? I got a job in my field that I don’t think I actually want. I hate corporate America. I just quit a job because it was all to feed the big bosses pocket while my hours get cut. And I don’t think I could deal with having a face full of vagina’s all day doing brazilians since girls don’t all clean down there. Shit, I don’t even remove my body hair besides my armpits, how is that to set a standard?
I’m signing a lease on Wednesday which means that if I stuck that out I would be finishing school, starting at the pool, starting as a GSA at the waxing place and moving in the first week of June. Its too much and I would rather have my health than more money. I need to talk it over with my boyfriend first but thinking about it makes me want to cry and you should not want to cry when you think about your life.
I just want to fix furniture and sleep. I don’t think I should have gone to school for what I did. I don’t regret it but ughh
Shits overwhelming. I don’t think I should’ve gone to school for what I did, I’m happier fixing things than dealing with people.
Today may have been my last day at one job. I can’t fucking stand working there so I’m perfectly okay with that. I had a mock interview yesterday at school and got a second interview for part time front desk there from it. That happens Fri and I’m really excited for that. Then I’m going to try to get swim team this summer so if that job interview is a success then I won’t have that weird jobless time in august and I’ll have only 2 jobs this summer.
Base By: Jahrenesis